November 05, 2007

Sunlight puzzle

Sunlight falls on this page of my book,
From a slit in the curtain from the window,
I turn the page, the sunlight follows,
It falls on the next one too,
I close the curtain shut tight.

Is this even remotely what you call a poem?
What in the hell is poetry?

Two things

Two things struck me today. I'll go in reverse cronological order.

We have this training thing going on in full swing in Mindtree. Now that this is essentially the fourth week started, it is getting way too much, but so is life. And I end up answering most of the questions depending upon the need to raise hand and so on. So we had this session on Lateral thinking where the person talking was mainly concerned about our inability to think at all, rather than going into lateral thinking at all.

What struck me was that all this life I was thinking about having a Ctrl-Z in life where you could undo so many things that I guess many of us want to. But during a certain discussion about pressing a rewind button, I thought thats not what I want at all. I would be once again deciding amongst choices that I have no idea which one to choose. I think, now, that I would rather prefer a look-ahead button in life. Like those crazy softwares for chess have. If I move this, what is the logical sequence and so on.

But I think we do have that, we have that in form of some experienced people, or our own ability to think about the consequences. Then probably, we also have the idea of depth in those chess software, how many moves deep can you go. I have been living large parts of my life like a chess software, however, due to the lack of depth or experience, there have been troubles at all times.

We also had a algo session sometime back. And I was thinking that I simply cant apply a backtracking algorithm, which is best option if you do not have look ahead stuff. So probably the best way to go about this thing would be greedy algorithm, which for a layman, like me, means that you choose the best option available at every step.

The second thing which struck me was the radio playing in the office bus (which is a tempo traveller, incedentally, and very pretty one for that). If I was given a computer with all the songs and the mouse and 20 minutes for music. I would want to listen to so many songs that all I would be doing will be juggling sons every twenty seconds, or lesser. But I was listening helplessly to the radio, and it was infact playing good songs, really good for that matter, except the advertisement breaks. And I wondered if that was a better way to go about it. Forget the ipod and get myself a good radio? And life??

November 02, 2007

I thought i wouldn't miss it all too much

I really thought I wouldnt miss college too much, and I didnt miss it for a long time. All the time I have been in Bangalore (about 10 months)

When I first went to a boarding school (class 8th), I never missed my home for the first three years. Not that i liked my school too much, but there wasn't too much to miss, except ofcourse that home was a place you could lie down and not do anything for months. It was only after class 10th probably that I started to miss home and people at home. Somehow, things became more real than they were in earlier.

When I came to college, I never for once missed school. And I don't really miss it all too much even now.

And I thought same pattern would follow for college too. But sadly that doesn't look like the case. Everything was fine till now, but just looking at this damn photo gallery on the college website, makes me damn nervous and sad. Bloody hell. I dont know what it was. I can not really quantify. I guess I really miss some time spent and I would really give things up to go back.

Thats only something we say I guess. Given the chance that I leave my work to go to college. Probably not. The last time I went back to college, i remember feeling so much out of place. I guess its only the memories that you can keep. Or atleast is the case with me. Unless one gives me back my room, and the other rooms I was more frequently found in and the people in there, I dont think there is a lot to go back to. I know I am nostalgic about the buildings and stuff too. But I know the relationships which I cherish in my nostalgia do not exsist so much anymore. I guess I dont even know too many people there. I never did know too many. But I guess the count has reduced even further.

I'll just sign off with a few pics, probably for the first time on this blog.

Foodcorts and labs, where probably I spent most of my college life.